Randy Suits

The Nearness of You

My dear Eve, the woman I bring roses to,

During the first few months of our relationship, before we permanently sealed our life long intentions, we both experienced a craving to together. I recall pain of heart and emptiness of soul many evenings alone with my thoughts. Usually one seeks to escape pain, but this ache was evidence of a man in need of the presence of the woman he loves, and I had no thought of terminating the source of the distress for I was determined to endure the short term sacrifices to attain the life long pleasure of us and you Eve. The underlying reason for my pain was that during those early days of our romance, we had no depth of love even though the emotion and passion ran rampant. Those days were a series of highs and lows mingled with uncertainty. We had a permanent need and mutual desire but the perpetual nearness we now enjoy had not settled over our love. It is with heart felt happiness and gratitude to God that I can know what you will say before you speak the word, how you will react to an incident, when your anger will stoke, your favorite foods, the way you say you aren’t tired but fall asleep before I do, the clothing styles you will choose or the end of your patience when I’ve postponed a honey dew chore too long. I could list all my habits, dispositions, opinions, stubbonness and predictable responses which are known by you. What this reveals is the perpetual nearness of you to me and the perpetual nearness of me to you which has developed through the shared plans, hopes, trials, disappointments, happiness, grief and deferred expectations. Tonight, even though we’re not together, I am content and at peace in my confidence of us and the penetrating, invigorating and stimulating nearness of you.

Missing you tonight, May God Bless and keep you, Kochany